I bet that there are no more readers. Haha.

Anyway, what I am going to say in this post is something which many of you are wondering.

1. What happened to me from Jun - Sept?

Okay, before I say anything about the tail, I would like to say that the three months which I suppose to go for my IAP. I did not. The three months where I MIA, I was in a very bad place. Due to all the problems I'm facing at home and all, I was unable to attend my attachment in Australia. Since I didn't give any notice, I failed my attachment. That means I will be retaining three months and I don't really care!

During that three months, I wasn't myself at all. I was depressed all the time and at times I wanted to commit suicide. Because of all that unnecessary stress, my eczema were aggravated and I did not want to come out of the house at all. I would just stay in my room in the darkness till I would go to sleep. That was my life for about 3 months. The worst I've ever been in my life.

2. Why am I keeping a tail?

The main reason for the tail is because of change. After I came out of my stupor and visiting the skin doctor numerous times, I decided to change my life forever! When I went to shave mohawk, I made a pledge to change my attitude, lifestyle and thinking. The tail reminds me of the trials I went through and never going back to that dark place again.

3. So what have I changed?

Firstly is my attitude, for those who have seen me back in school, I don't seem to be that fun, outgoing guy who talks to everyone during breaks and all. I find that during that times I was too distracted and maybe try to distract myself from the problems I faced. Now I've turned my attention towards working harder to strife in this semester. If I don't always talk too much or just alone by myself does not mean I am emo or weird. Its just I do not fee like talking at all.

Secondly is my lifestyle, I have decided to go partially straight edge. For those who do not know what that means. It means that I have given up alcoholic drinks, recreational drugs such as smoking and caffeine particularly coffee. I am also vegetarian on Wednesdays. I no longer drink soft drinks and only drink either water or tea.

Thirdly is my way of thinking, ever since I came out from that dark place, I see the world in a different light. I do not care about material stuff. I do not care about what people think of me. I do not care what you all say. I just care of getting as far as I can in my education that means getting my medical degree, becoming a doctor and help people. And when I am old enough and have enough money. I am getting out of Singapore. I hate this crazy, hectic lifestyle where everything about is money. I want to go somewhere peaceful and stress free. So, I decided to migrate to New Zealand.

4. How about NS?

I don't really care about NS. I just want to get over and done with. Last time I always wanted to go to NS and maybe become a regular but now screw it! I just want to get it over and done with and continue to study.

5. Plans for this semester?

I will be going all out in my fitness and studies. Its literally the last lap already and I've wasted my year 2. The final sprint is now and nothing is gonna hold me back. Nothing. All I want to do is go somewhere I've never been before and that is getting my diploma!

6. Any other things to add on?

Some unimportant things is that I am still crazy over Kpop. I guess its coming to almost a year already and I would say that SNSD is getting better every time they come out with a new song.

The older they get, the more talented they seem to become.

Besides Kpop, I am learning music theory and maybe start producing my own music in the future.

I think that is all I am going to post today. I will definitely be posting more soon and regularly too.

Gee